- (23/06/11 13:58) once again its too good to be true. Yes once again a glorious f*** up. Oh joy.. Once again i fall flat on my face. Heart bleeding... Im just going to give up. On everything. Because if this can fail so f***ing easily after 3 days.. Then my dream wont come true either. There is a hell believe me i've seen it. There is a heave lets keep it a secret...
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Music X2...
- (19/06/11 18:21) so i stumbled upon a series of albums called Punk goes pop.. Well in a nutshell they're covers of popular mainstream pop songs covered by non mainstream bands.. Well this got me thinking.. Its the same song, lets take: see you again. Nothing wrong with that song because its sung by someome "acceptable" (miley cyrus/hannah montana) ... But then its covered by a band called breathe carolina.. And because of the genre change one would accuse it of being evil.. Thats kinda retarded... Its like a puppy that gets rabies... Same song different style.. Not everyone wants to conform...
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Music..
- (19/06/11 08:04) once again music has the sound that does not only sound sweet to my ears - but sweet to my soul... Sure metal may be my choice of lyrical poison, but every rose has it's thorn right?? dont judge a book by it's cover is the same as dont judge a song by its choice of instrumental tempo.. Sure metal may sound harsh but sometimes the beauty of the lyrics are hidden behind guitar strings and a heavy drum riff..
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Moment...
- (16/06/11 08:49) in the moment when disasterous tragedy strikes - you realised the person you have loved for so long, loved someone else... Still loves someone else... In the moment of utter weakeness you catch yourself thinking : "what if...?" .... In the moment of realisation, you start to realise that you were a fool to have gone on so long, that the promises werent real. Nothing was. You just lived in a dream world, where it was just you and her... but in the sickening reality of it all.. She is inlove with someone else. And she will never truly love you.... And by you i mean me.. I was the foolish dreamer.. The one who clung to empty promises.. I am just a dancer in love's cruel cabaret.. I am just the face in the background. Frail words collapse. Friends arent real... Maybe im not real? Im just a puppet - made for everyone's amusement..
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Tut Mir Nicht Leid
- (28/02/11 15:19) Im alive only for you. Utterly devoted to you, i love you because you dont love me. A little cut and im turned on. My body already completely disfigured. You hurt me. You're not sorry. It does you good to listen to me scream. With you, i chose torment. (*Ich tu dir weh. Tut mir nicht leid. Das tut dir gut. Har wie es schreit!*) you want it and thats fine. So it was and so it will always be, whatever you want you get. (*Erlase dich! Seht ihr mich?! Mein herz schlaogt nicht mehr weiter*)
