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Nobody's Fool

- (9/11/11 14:40)
They all are negative, nobody willing to help, when they needed my help i was there. I opened my home to come in and live, their offspring as pathetic as they are. I am human, i have a heart which stores so much of everything. I cannot store much more. Im sad, lonely and angry, i want to get them back for making a mockery out of me. Oh God will you forgive me from what i am about to do? I know it's wrong but my pain is hurting me, i do not want to live with it any more.

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FREE FALLING!!

- (26/09/11 01:45)
It's a long way down to fall, still don't know how i got here so high up, it feels like i am flying with wings, with the snow white clouds around me, waiting to catch me for if i do fall. I want this to last forever, it feels wonderful. I never could imagine this is pure adreliline pumping the blood in my veins. I dare not look down, it will will spoil the way i feel, can i go any higher, to the place they call heaven, or do i look down and take the free fall to HELL. Tough choice. But i am not prepared to go down. I will wait for my saviour to come for me, i will go with him to the rightous place and be one of his loving angels.

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CONFUSED!!

- (25/09/11 17:01)
My mind is playing head games with my heart, im confused, dont know if i should love u or hate u. Your a christian with high standards making me think you are perfect in every sense. When we are intimate i feel wonderful, i want to fall in love with you, i'm scared because its not going to last long enough the way i wish it to go. In my confused state of mind i will except what you are trying to prove.

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FOOLISH PRIDE!!

- (25/09/11 16:48)
It started off good, it went on for a while, i thought you were the perfect man i have always wanted in my life, your love and the way you speak is toxic. I thought for a few times i was in heaven, walking in paradise with you. Hand in hand catching the stars and wishing that the way it is will not end. My tears sparkle like diamonds streaming down my face, such precious waste. Now i envy you, loathe you, my heart and soul in chains. I let my pride be fooled, you come and go not knowing what you want, your weak in the inside and strong on the outside. Im the fool to let u hurt me time and time again, i can not get you out, i do it to take the loneliness away. I don't want to think about what you are doing to my feelings. I enjoy the way you make me feel even when it is just for a short while. Lover play with me, l let my foolish pride get the better of me, even if it kills me afterwards until my end.

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MY LOVE!!

- (25/09/11 16:15)
My love, do you see the pain i am in, do you realise what you have done to me. What did i do to deserve such misery, does it make u happy to see me hurting. I loved you too much, who will love as much, i visualise your face in a distance, i see your cunning grin on your face, you can carry on what you do best. Break hearts, destroy happiness. You want me to fall to pieces, oh my love im still whole not broken entirely. Laugh like a sly fox, run with your guilty mind. Just remember you will always see my face, feel my touch, remember my words and laughter, it is all these things that will haunt you in time to come. I never wish you back in my life again,

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