- (26/07/07 06:13) Ok so the last two weeks have been bad! My mom and i are fighting all the time, she wont just let me be a mother to my own child and stop interfering! My dad well he is an asshole! My baby has fallen down the stairs twice Luckly it was only two stairs but i still feel like a failure! Plus she cries all the time specially at night when she wakes up, which is weird cause from birth she only woke up once a night and at 3 months she started sleeping through, now at 10 months she wakes up twice a night and screams for hours! And my mom does not help scream what i should do from the room instead of letting me do it my way, that woman works on my nerves! I am so depressed i cry all the time and i just really wanna cut badly but if i do i might not stop i might go to far and end my life! I dont know what to do and i an so alone, i sit at home all day with a baby who cant talk and when my parents get home my dad plays PS 2 and my mom plays PC so i am still alone i can only talk to myself!
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I Dont Do Nothing...
- (26/07/07 05:26) People think i just sit on my butt all day doing nothing cause i do home schooling! Screw them i dont! Yesterday i did 3 day learning work, a test, cooked bathed baby and looked after her which is difficult cause she is teething and when i was about to get into bed she woke up and screamed until 3 in the morning! I woke up at 6 today and did a test and when baby sleeps at 1 i am gonna study again! So screw you if you think i do nothing at home all day!
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Soul Searching...
- (22/07/07 16:44) I have not written in a while as i have needed time to think. I have now realised i have no friends cause i choose not to have any and same with a boyfriend! How do i change this state of mind? Oh how i miss being held and holding some one! I realise being single is not as much fun as i thought!
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Bad Hair Day...
- (9/07/07 15:39) Ok so i cut my hair today cause the woman who did it a month ago messed it up badly! Now i have cut it too short! I cant blow dry it cause my hair dryer is broken, and my brush. They broke like two seconds apart and i dont know why! Now look like a boy! Oh 1 good thing happene got a job i am gonna start on the 1st of August and on thursday and friday i have the launch to attend! I cant wait is sounds fun! Spikes has only been away 2 days but it feels like a week! Ag i hope tomorrow is better and that i will grow to like my hair! Atleat it grows back! But now for 2 to 3 months it is gonna look like it does now. Cant wait till it grows a bit even 1 cm will help!
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Life Is Weird...
- (8/07/07 12:50) Ok so my boyfriend broke up with me at 5 yesterday! How weird! Shortest relationship i have ever had! Who cares i enjoy being single anyway and i think i was just using him to forget about spikes! I miss spikes so much, i only realise now! I feel so alone! I was crying so much today! Wish he would come back! Well they say if you love something you should let it go and if it comes back... Ah you know the rest!
