- (15/12/11 13:49) What a day?! Omg seriously not one of my days,but thank GOD it's over! If you wake up feeling like you should not get out of bed my advice listen to your body and get back to sleep... Yoh seriously this day didn't turn out the way i expected honestly! But did i say thank GOD that it's over! Sooo eventhough my day was pretty crap i've come to realise that all the guys i meet are dweebs doesn't matter what they say or how they try to sugarcoat it they douches aaargh...hate is a strong word but i really really don't like them good gosh i'm so pissed right about now...tonight was supposed to be the beginning of something but ya maybe it's better this way...so here's to me and the long w.end hope it's a good one
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- (23/10/11 13:27) Sooo not loving my life!!! Feels like i'm back in that place that i really don't wanna be. Question is what happened? And how without me even noticing did i end up being back in that dark place?! Please GOD just help me like you've helped me before, make it better cause on my own i don't know if i'm strong enough to get through it so just help me! Please make me stronger, wiser and give me the courage that is so needed! I don't wanna go back to that "place". Wanted to cut so badly during the course of the past week, but managed to focus my mind on something else, i don't wanna cut anymore been a couple of months since i had my last cut and i wanna keep it that way...aagghh i'm i want these feelings to go away!!! I don't wanna deal with it, wish this year was over awready!
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- (2/06/11 11:51) Omw!i don't believ it. I thought that you be different but you're not!you don't have a flippin clue of how to treat a lady or wait maybe it's just me? All the s*** that you promised where is it huh?all we do is fight and than you've got the nerve to put the blame on me after you promised me that we will be good that things will work that you'll treat me good!and this is what you do?i like you alot and you claim that you love me,but why do you love me?wait is it really love or do you only love me for my body?than it aint love!s***!i can't believe you babz i honestly can't so much for a happy ending
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....RELATIONSHIPS!..
- (4/04/11 16:41) EISH!I KNOW I'M CUTE BUT I'M NOT CONCEITED...HAD A FAIR SHARE OF RELATIONSHIPS OR SHOULD I CALL IT "MAYBE RELATIONSHIPS"?!THERE WERE PRETTY BOYS~OUCH!THAN THERE WERE THE "NOT SO PRETTY BOYS"~OUCH!NOW THE LAST WAS KINDOF A SHOCKER I MEAN YOU'RE NOT EVEN MY TYPE BUT ME BEING THE GOOD GIRL I AM PROVED THAT I'M NOT SHALLOW AND DECIDES TO GET TO LEARN THESE GUYS BETTER AND WHAT DO THEY DO?TRY TO PLAY ME...I MEAN REALLY NOW?!(SIGH) THAN THERE'S THAT GUY!LIKE THE ONE!!!GOSH HE'S PERFECT TO THE T!THE KINDA GUY YOU CAN TAKE HOME TO MEET MOMMY AND DADDY!OMW...JUST ONE CATCH!HE'S OUTTA MY LEAGUE,FROM THE FIRST TIME I SAW HIM I KNEW OR RATHER I FIGURED OUT HIS "TYPE" AND SORRY FOR ME I DON'T FIT THE CRITERIA NOT EVEN 1!!!GOSH IT SUCKS CAUSE HERE'S A GUY I REAAAAALLY LIKE BUT I'M ALMOST 100%SURE HE DON'T FEEL LIKE I DO AND WHAT SUCKS EVEN MORE IS I GAVE UP ON GUYS AND THAN I MET HIM AND EVEN THOUGH I KNOW WE'RE NEVER GONNA BE IN A RELATIONSHIP I CAN'T HELP BUT LIKE HIM...AAAH WISHFULL THINKING
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AI!!!
- (1/10/10 12:23) WTF!NOT EVEN MY TYPE!WHY DO I DO THIS TO ME?YOU SHOWED UP OUT OF NOWHERE TRIED TO CHARF YOU'RE WAY INTO MY LIFE EVEN AFTER I TOLD YOU THAT I GOT SOMEONE IN MY LIFE! WHAT PISSES ME OFF IS THAT YOU'RE NOT WHO YOU CLAIMED TO BE! I WAS PREPARED TO GIVE THIS A CHANCE, TO LOOK PAST THE MATERIALISTICS AND SEE YOU FOR THE PERSON WHO I THOUGHT YOU WERE. GOSH I WAS KINDA OK WITH THE FACT THAT YOU'RE WAYYYY OLDER THAN ME AND THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE A KID THAT'S A FEW YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME WAS KINDA SHOCKER BUT IT WASN'T THAT BAD!!! BUT THAT YOU'RE MARRIED AND YOU HAD SEX WITH HER OMG!!!WHAT KOND OF PERSON ARE YOU? AND HOW DARE HOW FLIPPIN DARE YOU NOT TELL ME YOU'RE MARRIED!!? GOSH THIS IS s***! FROM NOW ON IF YOU DON'T FIT THE BILL AND YOU'RE NOT MY TYPE OR YOU'RE NOT LIVING UP TO MY LIST THAN...FLIPPIN BOUNCE! I'M TIRED OF LOWERING MY STANDARDS CAUSE I DON'T WANNA COME ACROSS AS A SNOB OR A CHIC THAT'S FULL OF IT BUT I DON'T CARE SO FROM NOW ON YOU CAN RATHER HATE MY GUTS.
