- (10/07/10 04:29) Ok what a crap week gosh!!! Seriously not one of my bestest and as if that's not bad had a s*** start to my w.end oh plz GOD i hope and pray that it will turn out better cause gosh it's not ayoba ai
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Just Me?
- (28/05/10 14:57) Ai today was one of those days it was fun no let me rephrase it was crazy fun!but i do think i over did it what can i say when its funtime i dont care bout anything else anyhu i had fun but yet im feeling guilty like s*** to say the least and i dont know why i always do it have fun and afterwards go on a guilt trip?mayb its just me or mayb im being human? Sooo another thing thats bothering me is me making choices or decided to do something but afterwards everyone has their own opinion of what i should do that i rather take their advice or their decisions and to hell with mine but its my life why cant i make the decisions and take action for my own life why must i follow other people gosh than they end up happy and me well im sad pissed and hate myself yet again being me really aint all that easy and this is what i realised today whilst taking a walk in the cold winterbreeze through the park gosh inhaling some fresh air cold wind on my face was like im awake
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Wht Do U Wnt Frm Me
- (13/05/10 13:59) Gosh no matter what i do why you always gotta make me feel less than ***! Sowi if im not like you but im me and i rather be me but seems like not everyone f***en agrees gosh wtf must i do to be accepted for me being me? And to top it off im actually concerned bout what you think or say gosh does treating me like crap and making me feel bad and stupid does it make you happy,well does it? Where is the old me the one who didnt give a s*** gosh i gotta find her
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....?*sigh*
- (24/04/10 10:47) Ouch! I really didnt see this once coming...ok first things first im no racist so when a guy of a different race approached me i was flattered and at the same time astonished but anyhu he knew my colleague and well he saw me and apparently it seems like he liked what he saw lol so he would come by the office and we would chat bout this and that he would call we would talk but he kept asking for my digits and i didnt give it mayb it was a bad move on my side but i needed time to adjust to all of it and stuff...so when i finally realised that i actually do like him and race dont matter or anyone else's opinion i was ready to agree that we could get together... i was adamant that ima tell him that its kwl lets give it a try but guess what...? Yesterday he came to the office but he visited my colleague who is the same race as him and chatted with her and all i got was a wave like thats not bad he phones and whilst she was busy i picked up and all he asked me was if he could talk with her
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F It!
- (15/04/10 15:07) How can you feel good one minute and like crap the next?f it thats what i dont get i was happy like just for a minute and it felt so good but than there always gotta be something or someone who wanna get you down i hate it! Ai but ya neh hopefully things will be better tomorrow just wanna be happy and feel like i belong is that too much to ask for
