- (14/12/09 12:43) So i was sooo lucky 2 get a taste of both worlds! And yet i wasn't totally happy didnt appreciate it. Now that its gone nd im back where i used 2 be i still aint entirely happy gosh i honestly dont get wat i want i had it all but wanted somethin less nd now that i'm back where i used 2 be i want somethin different damn tawk bout ungrateful
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- (23/10/09 11:44) Just wen i think all's well than suddenly out of nowhere flippin feelins from tha past seems 2 re appear without any notifications they just appear than im back in a place in my life where i really dont wanna be gosh i know 1 cant change over nite nd stuff but honestly im tryin here all i want is 4 those feelins nd s***ty habits 2 just leave me alone nd stay where they belong...in tha past
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Dreaded Feeling!
- (10/10/09 21:44) Gosh wat was i thinking?clearly i wasn't thinkin!if there is 1 thing that i dont like is it 2 puke eeuww! I got 2getha yesterday wit an 'ex-fwend'we had some alcohol and it was made obvious wat i knew all along and thats that we're not fwendz u are doin all tha things that i dont stand 4 and i wanna help u and be there 4 u but how can i when ur satisfied wit how things are!?im not trying 2 be a saint and i used 2 drink Used 2!but im ova that now 4 good alcohol aint 4 me i dont wanna feel like this again wit a headache, bein woken by tha sudden urge 2 vomit omg i feel like crap! i can't believe i went back 2 'those' days and here i was doin sooo well wit being changed. Wat hipocricy -excuse tha grammar- decided 2 leave behind alcohol,cuttin etc all of those stuff that i used 2 do and totally be devoted 2 God but wat do i do? Gosh im sowi God 4 i have sinned i know i can't choose God and mammon so im choosin tha obvious answer God ofcourse!
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Smarty Cat
- (6/10/09 17:29) Lol so thats what my fwend called me 2day nd his got a point lol anyhu got my exam results back 2day and...I PASSED!!but without God i couldn't do it so... Thank you GOD!without U i couldn't do it Thanks for your guidance and for always bein there without U i dont know where i would be so Thank You Jesus
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Not So Welcome?
- (8/09/09 18:22) Ok so i honestly thought that some time at home would do me good nd that my mom would mayb even like my lil visit rite?well i dont think she did 2 be frank i think im not her favourite person at tha moment cant blame her i guess...wow cant believe how much i've changed nd they say change is good but is it really in this case gosh! i cant believe wat i did am i that selfish?only 1 way 2 rectify things nd sort everythin out
